#cw chronophobia

[cartoonscientist]

Excuse me, but I’m not rotting, I’m oozing. Your body is rotting more than mine, stagnant meatdoll. My cells will be alive and digesting and reproducing long after yours have been cannibalized by the unruly flora you only think are part of you.

[chronophobia-crossover]

83 Seconds…

That’s all it took

[floortile34]

every moment is misery. the passage of time overwhelms me. watches grafted into my skin, a cacophony of ticking washing over me for the little fragile moments i exist

[perihel1on]

Theeee funniest thing abt this is that the other half the time i get trapped in these existential anxiety death spirals where im like "oh my god i just turned 25 thats a good quarter-to-third of my life gone what am i doing time is running out life is so short and meaningless and ive wasted it all oh god oh god i will die unfulfilled theres so many things i wish i could do"

Soooo... like @me do you wanna die or do you wanna live for 500 years? smh make up ur damn mind 😤

passive suicidal ideation my beloathed

[voca-song-a-day]

Today’s featured song is: “Chronophobia” by SaiyuP feat. Kagamine Rin! (cw: self harm, themes of suicide)

[cartoonscientist]

I am going to be thirty on the twenty-second of November and it really does feel like I’m magically starting to get my shit together, my skin is even clearer and I’ve made zero effort to stop picking, it just happened

[cartoonscientist]

everyone on reddit is like "yeah i thought i would keep fit as i got older but once i hit 30 i started getting insane stabbing pain in my back if i move a tiny bit wrong, it really does happen to everyone"

and im like dude from me to you it sounds like you need to go to a spine doctor because that's not normal

sometimes i feel like the societal narrative about aging and fetishization of youth leads people to leave long term health problems untreated because "oh your body starts falling apart after 25 what can ya do"

[cartoonscientist]

shout out to the internet attitude of “yeah your body just starts falling apart somewhere between 25 and 30 and it’s all downhill from there, I threw out my back yesterday just by rolling dice” for helping me ignore years of chronic pain caused by my deformed spine

[chronophobia-crossover]

she'd been dreaming of this day.

[chronophobia-crossover]

1983

[cartoonscientist]

just GERD things: when eating even a single piece of fruit or slice of bread makes you need to steel your body like a competitive eater for an hour afterwards so you try to research small, high calorie meals so you can limit the pain and inconvenience but for some reason google just assumes you’re either in the early stages of dying or have temporary gastrointestinal distress so even though you include terms like “gastrointestinal disorder” or “small stomach” or even “bariatric surgery” out of desperation they just give you results like “your illness will only last a few days, so you can focus on light, soothing snacks like plain broth and crackers without needing to worry about getting enough calories” or “try to comfort your loved one and offer them very small portions of beloved foods like ice cream or chocolate; remember, they most likely won’t be around long enough to suffer from poor nutrition”